Sleep Evasion

Just like everyone else, I sometimes have a hard time sleeping. My mind races, thinking of all the things left to do for the next day, thinking of what I accomplished today, etc. We've all experienced this, so I don't think I need to go into detail.

Sometimes, however, I can't sleep because of fear. I fear "What if this night is the night I go to sleep and don't wake up?" It scares me, for sure. This happened this other night, and I really got to thinking. There's tons of things I haven't done yet, so many things I haven't experienced, that to sleep and not wake up scares me so much.

While all this was going through my head, a prevailing thought came screaming through. I suddenly realized, as in a moment of complete clarity, that I shouldn't be fearful at all. To die would be so amazing, for it means I would wake up in Heaven. I'd get to see God and spend the rest of eternity in complete worship and awe. On top of that, I'd get to see all those that I've had to say goodbye to. How can this possibly be a bad thing... how can I possible be scared of THIS?!

I don't really fear anymore, and nor should you.